Day 3
Wake up at 1040am. altho had 10hours of sleep, im still feeling sleepy. maybe my blood circulation is weak, i should buy a manetic therapy bed pad for myself. haha. now having terrible backache after sitting infront of the com from 7pm till now 106am.
i skipped school today. cause i made an appointment with my aunty. for the past few days she always ask me to meet her some where else then her house. today i finally know why.
i reached her house at 3pm. 1hour late haha. starting was ok. but can see from her look, she feel scare. im i that scary?...we tired some experiment for her. but she keep saying she dont feel anything eventho, even winnie and i can see there is a diff. so after 1/2hr we decided to call it a day. just when we about to walk toward the door. her elder son came home. i greeted him. but all he do is walk toward the table throw his file on the table. as my aunty room door is open. he walk over and slam my aunty's room door close. and walk to the kitchen. what kind of atitude is that?. fuck him ar!. altho i went his house is to sell my aunty things, but the things i selling im sure it is good, it sure can improve her health thats why im willing to go for it and dare to go up to their door to sell them. whether she buy it or not is up to her. i never force her. so whats the atitude for? shit him, think he big fart ar. i will never waste my energy on him anymore.
after that i called my cousin's friend who agreed to meet me tonight, but when i called him, he used all kind of excuesses, im too tired. so many time i feel like giving up. and i asked myself im i doing the right thing? should i continue? then you would always come to my mind. remember the time you said me. so many people had put in effort for me, my mum, my cousins, and even winnie. if i were to just give up now. how im going to face them. and i want to be successful to show to my dad and that fark up cousin. and honey you are always willing to sacrifice for me, so that i can comcentrate on my work. always there supporting me, listen to all my shit from work. thanks for everything honey. i promise you i wouldnt say give up so easily k
i want to earn lots of money. by the age of 21 own a BMW, 23 marry my honey, 26 be financally free. haha this might seem like dreaming. but atlest when im in here, there something that i can see and to dream for.
so after that i when woodland library with winnie awhile then i went home.on the way home. everywhere that i go. everythings that i see. i could see you footstep everywhere.i miss you so much you know?..i almost go and take 911 instead of 161. i miss you honey.
reached home.nothing to do. so i plan to do somthing to my blog. as the template somehow the pictures are not showing. so i find a new skin. and found the song loneliness hehe. and helped my mei too.
then i finished up the english games report. send to one of my member, then she suan me ar! say my english like shit. haiz.. i had to admited it too. but anyway also good she help me edit i got 1 less thing to do. then i look thru the java. i came out with something but dont know if its correct.
all the way till now 2am already. chatting with chewy and tiko. my mum just open my door saw im still awake she went to the kitchen and pass me some ginsen powder to drink. so touched :p
kk im tired. tmr gonna fight to atlest close a deal. wish me all the best.
missing you. nite nite,
muacks!
