I have changed...
alot..
till i dont even know what kind of person am i.
now im just so numb, that how im feeling now, i also cant tell.
i used to be so proud of myself that i am such a person that nothing can troubled me, except my mum been forcing me to study :p always happy-go-lucky.
but now..
i cant even remb the last time i smiled from my heart.
im just so tired.
im not petty.
its just that everything that you do will affect me.
and everything that i do i scare to affect you.
and in the end i scare of everything.
when you said you are like the one wearing the pant in the relationship.
you know why?
cause i always listen to you.
i dont want to upset you.
and when i decided not to listen to you for just once, we will end up quarreling.
and i will have no mood to do what i wanted to do.
i know you care for me, you think for me, you think of me.
i know.
thats why i willing to listen sometimes.
i know im
unromantic
not good in sweet talk
not good in controling my mood
not good in consoling
dont know how to do sweet stuff
unhumourous
and lastly Broke.
i know i must change, but sometimes i just cant control.
i now just need some rest, not as in Sleeping.
but to run away from this crazy world.
im sick.
im really sick in the head.
when i watched "zhen qing" last sunday. somehow the relationship between xiao an and jing jing just seem so much like us. not as in the things that happen. but their character.
now we are having an "On Hold" thingy, honestly i just dont know what to do.
just want to tell you, no matter whats the outcome. Promise me to be strong! and take care of yourself.
waiting till the Day...........
